A 22 year old woman said she has reached a heartbreaking emotional breaking point during her first pregnancy, admitting she no longer wants to be a mom after months of feeling abandoned, betrayed, and completely alone while carrying her baby. At 25 weeks pregnant, she said what should have been one of the most meaningful seasons of her life has instead turned into a lonely and painful experience shaped by a partner who has failed her in nearly every way.
She said she met the baby’s father when she was 20 and he was 28. Now, at 22, she is preparing to have her first child with a man who is already 30 and has two other children. Instead of feeling supported, she said she has done everything by herself so far, from shopping and appointments to baby shower preparation and all the other details that come with getting ready for a child. She also said she expects to be alone postpartum, because he will be in another state while she is recovering physically and emotionally from birth.
That reality seems to be one of the hardest parts for her to accept. Pregnancy already comes with overwhelming changes to the body, mental health, and daily life, but she said she is facing all of it without the partner she thought would be beside her. Rather than showing up consistently, she described a man who cannot even manage to be awake for appointments, either in person or even over the phone. On the day someone asked him her due date, she said he could not even remember it.
What made that moment sting even more was his response when she got upset. According to her, he brushed off her hurt by telling her not to “be one of them” and said she was asking for too much. But from her point of view, she was not asking for some unrealistic standard. She was asking for the bare minimum: emotional support, attentiveness, and some sign that he actually cared about what she and their baby are going through. Instead, she said she has gotten almost nothing and is somehow expected to feel grateful simply because he is “there” and not “disowning” the child.
Her pain did not stop there. She said he is repeatedly caught cheating, whether through messages or plans to meet up with other women while she is pregnant. On top of that, she said he accuses her of cheating, blocks her from his social media, and continues following strippers and women he has previously been involved with. The relationship, as she described it, has become a cycle of humiliation, emotional instability, and disrespect at a time when she is already at her most vulnerable.
Even more disturbing, she said some of their arguments have turned especially cruel. She claimed he has told her he hopes she miscarries, that she should put the baby up for adoption, and that he hopes she enjoys being a single mother, which she said she technically already is. Those comments appear to have left deep emotional damage, not only because they were vicious, but because they came from the person who was supposed to be her partner during one of the biggest transitions of her life.
For her, the grief seems to go beyond the relationship itself. She said she never imagined her first pregnancy would look like this and feels like she has disappointed the little girl in her who once swore she would never allow herself to end up in this kind of situation. That may be part of why her words feel so heavy. She is not only mourning the partner she does not have. She is mourning the version of motherhood and pregnancy she thought she would get.
She also said she feels like she is losing herself and that her freedom is gone forever. Instead of excitement, she feels dread. Instead of hope, she feels guilt and sadness. She knows labor and postpartum will be painful, and right now she expects to go through both without the support she was promised. She said she loves her baby, but still cannot shake the feeling that she wishes she were not pregnant and could go back. That conflict, loving the baby while grieving the life she thought she would have, is what makes her pain feel so raw.
What stands out most is that this does not sound like a woman rejecting her child. It sounds like a young woman overwhelmed by betrayal, isolation, fear, and the crushing realization that the man beside her is not the one she believed he was. Her words reflect someone who is deeply depressed, deeply disappointed, and frightened by the future she sees ahead of her.
In the middle of all that pain, one thing is still clear: she knows this is not what support looks like. She knows there are men who show up financially, emotionally, and physically, and she knows she is not receiving that. That awareness may be painful, but it also matters. Sometimes the first honest sentence, even an ugly one, is the one that finally names how bad things have become.
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